i name myself as a queen ,an interview queen ,
after being interview for four successive days.
please do not  take it for granted as an evidence of my popularity
i know i am not such a popular guy
and, interview is not an interpersonal activity!!
monologic self-promotion, sly question-answers games,
make you exhausted!
occasionally for once or twice,
one can enjoy
but for four successive times
believe me
it is not a pleasant experience at all.


In two of  the interviews,
i got the opportunity for second round with my efforts,
but neither of my performance in Round 2 was desirabe, i think.
that is the point i feel upset about, 
i should have been narrowly successful, shouldn't i?
why can't those companies instantly inform me the final results?
the worst thing in the world is giving sb. hope then getting the hope back
Damn it!!!!

the result of today's interview mainly depends on my passage of TEM-8
the ironic thing is that what i have acquired won't gone at any moment  because i won't pass the TEM-8
either, what i haven't acquired won't come into my mind at any moment  because i pass the TEM-8
it makes no difference to my physical strength and intellect development
however,
what decides my career is just the thing making no difference to me!!
what's worse,
i accept this reality  and obey this rule.
that is the generally ackownledged standard 
what i shuold do is try my best to surpass this standard!!
Am i positive or negative?


i am a queen 
an exhausted queen unwilling to be.......